I can sense a change in the winds, an unsteadiness in my heart, and a sail headed towards a new course. I've been finding myself lost in my own thoughts more and more these days. I've become more absorbed into myself even with friends, even when surrounded by people. Maybe I'm just tired.
Decisions are being made. Things seem like they are falling into place. I find myself longing to be on the coast, in the woods, in the mountains. I feel the sweetness of being alone in solitude, the goodness of self-exploration. I feel a desire to leave this place, to leave home and start anew. Yet there is still part of me that is drawn to what is known, to what is comfort and comfortable. There is still all of me drawn to the people here, their love, the community, their company. I want joy. I want peace. But I need change. My eyes long to set themselves on something new even if for a little while. I want to be meaningful. Wherever I may be I want to be utilized to my utmost potential. I want to be loved. I want to love. I want to feel valued. I want to give heart and soul.
Decisions are being made. Things seem like they are falling into place. I find myself longing to be on the coast, in the woods, in the mountains. I feel the sweetness of being alone in solitude, the goodness of self-exploration. I feel a desire to leave this place, to leave home and start anew. Yet there is still part of me that is drawn to what is known, to what is comfort and comfortable. There is still all of me drawn to the people here, their love, the community, their company. I want joy. I want peace. But I need change. My eyes long to set themselves on something new even if for a little while. I want to be meaningful. Wherever I may be I want to be utilized to my utmost potential. I want to be loved. I want to love. I want to feel valued. I want to give heart and soul.
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| I'd give anything to hear you say it one more time That the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes - Saturn, Sleeping At Last |
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